Way more too excited?

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I realized in 2015, I felt like I sat in roller coaster seat. Ups and downs, left and right, horrible twists, and never gonna be in normal position. Everything was so confusing, thrilling and yet exciting.

Maybe, it is the way to describing how’s my life when I’m in 24 years old.

but by the way, in about 2 months away, I’m gonna reach my quarter of life. (GASPED!)

One thing that I also realized, my heart was pumped quite hard when I knew those big decisions have to be made in this year.

Well, sometimes I think I just wanna sit down and let others do the decisions and like machine, I’m doing the process by order.

But hey, I’m not a robot.

I’ve been planning to escape for a while for this year.

Go somewhere that nobody knew me, and stay there for couple of days.

I want to travel by myself and contemplation.

And yeah, they  think that is selfish and I just wanna run by my self.

The truth is,

I’m afraid.

I’m afraid that I’m way too excited for everything  that will happen to me this year

Everything that I have to handle by myself.

I ever tried to talk with somebody else and not my self,

But what I’ve got was disappointment.

I won’t let that happen again.

I used to have nice convo person that I can talk literally about everything.

But now. I don’t know who I can really really trust to talk with.

I don’t wanna put any burden to them..

I just want to share happiness.

Okay, am I too mellow this time?

Oh Please, what should I do to overcome this situation?