Hello 2016, Goodbye 2015

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Another year passed, another year come..

I’ve been so caught up with my own thought, that 2015 was a fucked up year.

But then I realized, that wasn’t so bad after all.

It started with mellow drama in earlier months in 2015. I lost a good man. Indeed, a very good man. My life was turns upside down, I can’t focus. Either in my career, academic, or even in my own real life. Afterwards, my birthday month came, and I suddenly realized how much that I wasted my life only mourning and cursing my terrible attitude and actions towards my self and other person who care about me.

Then, life went well. I achieved some awards and honor from university. Well, not bad J I met lot of new people, I came to new circles, I joined them. Even though I knew that I wasn’t belong to them that far, but yes I managed to went out from my dark cave. Nobody knows that I was torn apart. My happy face saved me J

I ever heard that your healthy mind would control your healthy body. You can set it up in your mind. This, I couldn’t applied it. My body protessed and made me to stay in hospital *again for more than a week. Serious viruses came to my body, and worsen by the ridiculous doctor who mislead to another symptom of sickness yougottabekiddingme! It makes to go to hospital every once in two months to check up some serious health condition…. Too bad. My healthy eating habits and  love to do sports can’t help me to increase my own health.

I knew that my family is really care about me most. They took care of me every day and night and make sure I’ve got enough food, enough conversations, enough happiness, and enough positive minds to overcome those situations. Sometimes I can’t help my self, to screamed under pillow while they were went out from hospital’s room and cried by myself. I was so pathetic.

Hmm, but the good news came. My campus awarded me as high distinction student and my parents attended those ceremonial. They smiles were so priceless. I smiled a lot in that day… life was not really cruel after all.

So yeah, like another normal person, I tried to move on with my life. And it suddenly hit me. I’ve got a chance to go to Paris! Eiffel! 17 years ..after 17 years of dreaming! Can’t you imagine that? I was soooooo happy *until now. Some events in Paris caused lot of drama and tears, but yes, I  nailed it! This added with the opportunity to played a long with UNESCO Goodwill Ambassador, Mr.Eijin Nimura. I made a traditional Indonesia’s song only for 30 minutes! And it was a amazzzzzzzziiiiiiing opportunity in my whole life! Lot of applauses came from 500 students of UNESCO Youth Forum (the name of the events that I attended), and the ambassador never say enough thank you and proud to have a young Indonesian play on that huge stage. J Alhamdulillah..

Few weeks earlier, I also feel sad because my bff, shindy, left me for working in Turkey. I can’t lie, I was so sad. But I didn't wanna show that †o her, so I tried to smile a lot. I didn't  know if it was worked out or not, but yes, my happy faced saved me *again J

There was also a big event that happened in my life. Somebody proposed me. Without any drama, without any relationship.. it just happened. Like…. Rainbow after the rain.. it comforts me, because my family were so happy.. and I can’t thanks enough to Allah because of that opportunity.

I ever lost my path, but I don’t want it anymore..

So here I am, in another 365 days of journey. Insha Allah, I try my best to make it better than last year